Mrs. Sheila

Funny, how circumstances begin to work in your life either molding you into a new person, or bringing out something that God has created in us to begin with that just has to be nourished and fed until it could come forth. That is what indeed is happening in my life latley.

Priorities are things that we put our utmost effort in completing to the best of our ablilites. Some may say that their relationship with Christ is their priority, yet struggle with finding even 5 minutes to pray. Some may say their spouse is their priority but yet, their spouse is lonely because they are off persuing other "dreams". What we truly put the most of our time and effort in.. is what we are persuing. It could be our careers, materialistic things, even being a people pleaser.

I am not perfect in this, and that is what is working on me at this moment. Those imperfections of saying one thing, but my life showing another is just almost embarassing. How many times have I said that my family is a priority over my job, but yet... when it comes to staying home with an ill child, or even tending to an ill elderly person in our family I feel guilt about missing one day. I am not so good at what I do that I can't be replaced. Why do I strive for perfection in the eyes of man ~ when I know in my heart it is what I truly put priority in my life that God will view. Shouldn't it be him? Shouldnt it be my family? Most definately.

This week has been a learning experience for me to understand that I CAN'T please everyone, and my family will come before work without the guilt that I have felt for letting others down this week. If you have felt let down by my lack of "responsibility" at work this week, I can't appologize, but I can ask you to look at my priorities. What does this week say about them? I FINALLY put family first, without neglecting the instant needs of my children, my other family, and even the basics of preperation for my classroom. This has been a good week for me. I have learned that I can do what is right for me, and if others have issues with it... that isn't mine to fix. I can't fix what someone thinks of me, and for once.. that is okay! I have struggled with people pleasing for many years, especially when it comes to my career. No matter where I have worked I have always FELT guilty for missing. I am not one of these who miss just because. Usually if I am not there, there is a reason.

I can surely say that I have learned alot about me this week, alot about Him, and His purpose for us, as well as .. how easy it is to judge someone for not living to our expectations of them. I think the only expectation I have of others is this: They are human! Things happen!

~~~ If you are readin this... please say a prayer for my Mother In Law. She is in the Hospital with a cracked hip bone. I will know more later on. ~~~