Coastal Reflections

Closing my blog for now

I won't be blogging any more - for how long, I don't know.  There are a few reasons behind this. 

I just heard from my primary care physician's office.  They received the results of my blood tests from this past weekend and in addition to me having hyperthyroidism (although all my physical symptoms still point to hypothyroidism), my blood sugar levels are elevated which means I may be prediabetic or diabetic (I wasn't given much info on the phone and the call woke ds2 so trying to talk over a crying baby was pretty much useless).  I was not told to fast for my blood tests and I should have been.  *sigh*  I should have been asked at the lab if I was fasting before my blood was drawn and I wasn't.  *sigh*  Dh and I honestly do not remember if I ate or drank anything before I went to the lab or not.  He seems to think I did and I think I didn't until I came home.  Anyway, I have to go again this weekend and have more blood drawn after fasting to see if my levels are again elevated.  One other test came back out of proportion as well and I can't remember what the person who called said it was, but if I did eat or drink that could be what caused it to be off as well.

All these medical issues are weighing heavily on me.  Add to that the stress from ds1 being out of control behavior wise (all jealousy issues with the baby even though he loves him dearly and dh and I don't know how to fix it) and I am just a wreck emotionally and physically.  Dh is adding to the stress by telling me over and over that we just need to put ds1 in private school.  I am completely against that as I am passionate about homeschooling and still feel that is what the Lord wants us to do.  Dh says he also disagrees with ds1 being in private or public school, but somehow he thinks that will solve the stress.  I can't get through to him that it will not make the jealousy issue go away and all it will do is create more stress for me having to deal with a school system I am against and a way of life that I do not feel the Lord has called us to lead.

I have many things on my plate that I need to be focusing on such as time with my kids, homeschool lesson planning, educating myself about my medical issues, etc.  I don't think my blog gets read much anyway and I don't feel I contribute in the capacity here that others do as far as helpful information and such.  I have no real life friends and just a handful of online friends so yes, I do seek friendships online and it is disheartening to me when hardly any comments are made on my blog posts.  I know I need to stop fretting over that though and stop seeking friendships online.  What I need to do is let Jesus be my best friend.  I turn to others before I turn to Him and that has to stop.

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11:43, 2006-Jul-27 .. Posted by Carol

I'm sad yet I totally understand your situation. Hugs
~carol

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12:12, 2006-Jul-27 .. Posted by southofthegnatline

I know that there are many mothers who can relate to what you are going through right now. Do not ignore your inner voice (instincts) and seek guidance through prayer. You must do what you feel led to do.

Know you and your family remain in my prayers~
Harriette Jacobs

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01:28, 2006-Jul-27 .. Posted by Lynnie

I will miss reading your blog everyday to see what you have been up to, but I totally understand. You have been in my daily prayers and I will continue to pray for you. We will be in touch anyway! I'm going to the beach for the next week, but I will continue to pray and we will touch base when I get back!
Luv ya!
R Lynn

Oh goodness...

02:26, 2006-Jul-27 .. Posted by HSBFrontPorch

Sounds like you do have a lot on your plate and that it's wise to take some time to work through your thoughts and take care of things. We'll miss you blogging though. I hope you'll be back soon. Even if not too many people are commenting, you are a wonderful part of our community ~ a friendly caring neighbor. :o)
I was always so happy to see your dolphins avatar as I was perusing through the last 100 post.
We'll be praying for you and hope you'll be back soon.
Blessings,
~Nancy
Senior Editor

Oh my

02:47, 2006-Jul-27 .. Posted by MrsBurns

I am so sorry to hear bout your health issues. I will pray the Lord will provide a correct diagnosis and give the doctors wisdom as you go through the rest of the tests.
I hope you'll come back and post, though. I watch for comments, too, and get discouraged when no one else has anything to add to my posts. But you would probably be surprised at how many people are reading your blog. I know I do whenever I get a spare minute to sit and read through my list.
Take care and check in with us so we'll know how you are.

I'm so sorry

05:31, 2006-Jul-27 .. Posted by southernbelle

I am sorry to hear that you are sick. I know that must be terribly stressful. I hope you get a correct diagnosis and that it turns out to be not as bad as thought. I got upset one time when I blogged and blogged and felt like nobody read. I told an experienced blogger about it and she said you just have to keep on blogging. Actually you are getting more reads than you know. And the person you are blogging for is yourself. Well I took her advice and changed how I looked at blogging. Hey, my blogs usually just consist of my daily happenings...which may just be housework! I just thought I'd try to cheer you up. I hope your health improves and blessings to your babies!

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05:03, 2006-Aug-7 .. Posted by DonnaJoy

Just wanted you to know - we miss you and hope you are doing much better - you are in many prayers!!
Bless...
Donna

Hope You're Feelling Better

11:15, 2006-Aug-8 .. Posted by teapots66

Hi, there, I just came across your blog by doing random reading - I hope you're feeling better. I know how you feel about comments, sometimes you pour your heart out in a blog because it really is a diary of sorts for us. I think sometimes people read but maybe don't post because they only have so much time. I know this doesn't help when you feel lonely. I pray God sends you a friend to help you through this trying time. I prayed for friends a few years back, it's been an up and down thing since then! Also, my hubby is diabetic, it does wreak havoc on your emotions if that's part of what's going on with you. He is very up and down - not saying that's the total problem, but I hope if you are diabetic you can at least get that under control so you'll feel a little better, physically. Sorry to sound preachy. Your words touched me. - hope you're ready to come back soon.
Chris