Life In Slow Motion

Back For The First Time

The title makes no sense... but that's ok. Everything in life doesn't have to be neat & tidy.

I've been M-I-A for awhile. Work and the house has been keeping me busy.

My dog was sick again a few days ago with that same thing as before but seeing as how we took her to the vet last time and paid a load of money and still had no answers we decided to try our luck at home. It worked probably better here than it did there because she's comfortable here and didn't get so scared. I've come to the conclusion that she must be getting into something in the back-yard so I have to do a complete comb-through of it because this is getting tiresome.

Other than that I've only been working on the house trying to get it into top shape so I can get rid of it. Isn't it funny how you can live with your house looking crappy for years but when you go to sell it you put all this money into it to make it look better? You don't want people to know you've been living in a crappy house for a long time so you have to fix it up so they can look at it. Ha ha. That always killed me. I used to watch those Designed To Sell shows on HGTV and they had people who have hated their homes for years and then when they finally fix it up to sell it they decide to stay there. If they had fixed it up all along they might not have been miserable all this time.

My problem runs deeper... I hate this state. Ha ha. It's not the house that bugs me so much it's the area. That, I can't change so I am out!!

I bought some seeds and stuff the other day to try my luck again at getting things to grow from scratch. Who knows if it will actually work, but hey, I have nothing to lose. :) I thought about going to the nursery down the street and seeing if they had some trees that I like the looks of to plant -- against my mom's wishes of course. I don't know her deal, seriously. I recently got a free pin in the mail for being part of a Save The Rainforest campaign and she wanted one too. I don't know why she would be worried about saving the rainforest when she's cut down all the trees to DARE & grow in her yard. Weirdo. Ha ha. I told her though, when we get our new house there's going to be plant-life. I like green. I'm a treehugger, what can I say?? Ha ha.

I'm one of those "My way or the highway" people. If she doesn't like what I do with my place then she can stay here with her life-less house. Ha ha. I'm not sure if she takes me 100% serious yet, but she will.

I better get going, I have work in a few hours and I am trying to get all my wash done in the next couple days. Keep your fingers crossed for me.

I Laugh!

It's so funny that now that I've gotten serious about helping my mom pay off her debts so the two of us can move I've gotten 3 proposals to be a roommate. Where were these people when I was so desperately wanting my own place? HMMM!!! Kidding, kidding. But now that I am finally comfortable where I am and where I am going it would be a dumb mistake to throw it out the window just to have "my own place". Besides - I have more than enough stress in my life without worrying about whether my roomie will pay their part of the bills on time.

My yard is finally starting to look pretty. It still has no plants because my mom is the polar opposite of a green-thumb -- does that make her a red-thumb? -- and she keeps killing anything that I manage to get to grow. Plus - I don't think she likes plants... the horrid woman. We had some bushes in front of our house when we moved in and she tore them out... we had a glorious old pine tree in the middle of our front yard and she had it torn out. No wonder the grass is afraid to grow. But I've been trying to work some magic into it and so far so good - if I can only keep her away from it all. Ha ha.

I saw at my job that we have some spiffy looking plant seeds on sale - I haven't had very much luck getting things to grow from scratch but I can give it a try once more... practice makes perfect, right?

I best be getting to bed, I have to fulfill my destiny and get to work on time for a change. Ha ha. Hope to hear from you all soon!! :)

Summer Is Here...

Or do I mean Spring? Nope!! In Arizona we don't really have a Spring... well, I guess maybe our winter is a Spring. Ha ha. It never gets very cold here and then as soon as it warms up enough to not wear a light sweater out it's 90-something degrees outside (like it was today.) April and already we are outside sweating and getting our pools cleaned up so we can basically live in them for the next 6 months or so.

Well, I had a plan explode in my face... as I usually do. I was planning to save around $100 from every check and take a trip up north this summer BUT on the very first check that this was to take effect my dog got sick and we had to take her to the emergency clinic. Anyone who has ever been to an emergency clinic knows that this is pure torture... both mentally and monetarily (is that a word?) Anyway, so we take her and just for them to look at her is $100. Then comes the shot to relax her because she was freaking out -- really who wouldn't, having all those vultures poking at her in the middle of the night -- that's another $50 or so. Then comes the shocker... this 7 pound chihuahua doesn't react to their dose so they pump her again... another $50. That still doesn't work and they don't want to give her more or else she may go to sleep and not wake up. Good thinking on their part. Then they have to give her some activated charcoal because they think she has eaten something that disagrees with her... $75. But we don't want her to dehydrate so they give her some fluids under the skin - $25. All in all the night cost us $310.80 (but who's keeping track?) Needless to say my plan didn't work out too well.

I had wanted to spend some of that check to buy some plants and things to stick in these extremely cute planters I bought BUT that's going to have to wait... oh well. Maybe our yard will look better by then because at the moment it is ugly and embarassing. 

That's all for now - time to get some sleep. It's been a long couple of days -- what with spending almost my whole check before I even had it and all. So long and goodnight fellow bloggers.

P.S. I want to thank HappyOwl for the warm welcome. I'm new at the whole blog world so it was nice to be welcomed and not treated like a stupid kid (which I am.) Ha ha!! 

Just A Day, Just An Ordinary Day

Well, it turns out that my "Big Day" wasn't quite so big after all. As a matter of fact it was pretty slow and uneventful. Ha ha. Such is my life, though. I have become accustomed to it.

Tomorrow morning, though, I have something to look forward to. Turns out I am invited to attend a Revlon Cosmetics Seminar. They will be informing us of their newest products and giving us free samples. Also, it's at some swanky hotel downtown and they're offering free breakfast and lunch. I never have been one to pass up free food. The free make-up doesn't hurt either. What's the point in being a girl if you don't get to be girly and dress up from time to time, right? I've never been to one of these things before - I hope I don't fall asleep... eep!!

Well, at the moment I am trying to use some of my pep talks on my friend Amanda. She seems to have some serious confidence issues so I am trying to tell her that "You are whatever you think you are." If she believes that she is desirable then other people will find her desirable as well. She's finding it hard to believe that it's that easy... ahh well. She'll come to see I'm right. Ha ha.

Well, I'd better get going, I have to pick up my co-worker early early in the morning to go this conference with me. Tell you all about it later. :)

Not Too Shabby

If you celebrate Easter - Happy Easter!! Even for a person, such as myself, who doesn't much get into holidays I'd definitely have to say that today was one of the best I can remember in a long time. No one in my family has ever been big on keeping to themselves whatever was in their head but tonight no one took all the bashing too literally. It was all good-natured and no one got all butt-hurt over it. That was nice to finally have one day where we all just got along. The one downer was that my cousin - who was supposedly on her way from another state - didn't show up. She decided she didn't want to make the trip alone. I can't say I blame her but it gets a little old constantly waiting for someone to do what they've said they are going to do.

I took loads of cool pictures so I'll try and get them up as soon as I can. Put a face to the whine, if you catch my drift. Ha ha!!

Well I guess that's all I really have to report as of now. I'd better be going, I've got a long day tomorrow. More about that later!!

Well, the full moon was last night but unfortunately I didn't get to enjoy it because it was cloudy and you couldn't see it. Oh well, there's always next month.

I just went last night and got all the stuff I'd need for the whole Easter basket thing with the family. I'm not too big on Easter because it is a Christian holiday but my family is into it so I don't want to be rude and just not show up. So I headed to the store to pick everything up for the whole dinner thing and what-not. It reminded me of why I always try to get everything done early... those Easter aisles were a disgusting mess - they looked like a tornado had been through them. Not to mention nothing was in the right place so I had no idea how much I was actually spending on anything. I didn't do too bad though, I spent a lot less than I thought I would. That's a pat on the back if I ever heard one.

I'm getting impatient with myself. I have been trying to think of a way to redecorate my bathroom because it's boring and we haven't painted it since we bought this house 15 years ago... that's a lot on grime on the walls. Ha ha. I, unlike my mother, like color. I don't like things to be boring and white, but she doesn't like things to be bright and bold. So we've compromised on light pastel colors and I am fine with that, only I can't figure out colors that look good together for my poor neglected bathroom. I want it to be spiffy because we do spend time in there getting ready but I don't want it to be trying to hard... if that makes sense.

Well I'm off to get ready for the wonder that is work. I'm so tired I don't really want to go - but if I intend to hold on to any shred of my dream to move out of this craphole then I need to go as often as I can and make that money!!!!!

Good Morning Star Shine - The World Says Hello

Well, I guess for this - my very first entry - I should start by introducing myself to all of you out in blog-land. My name is Tracy, I'm 19 years old and I live in Arizona (for the moment). I'm not a very big fan of desert or city so the plan right now is to save up enough money to blow this popsicle stand.

For years I've yearned to live in somewhere in which the pace is much slower and so I am working on finding that place as I write. A few weeks back there was a guy who got shot 4 times in my neighborhood and I don't want to have to be afraid every time I walk outside. I don't want my kids (when I have them) to have to be afraid. So I am moving on. My mom has never been much of a city person either, she's always loved farms and ranches, and I grew up very sheltered and very old-fashioned so I've always known that where I go she goes (whether she wants to or not). Ha ha!!

Anyway, I have 3 dogs that I absolutely adore and a dad who I don't adore so much... truth be told - if I left today I wouldn't take him with me. That's a whole different therapy session though, oops, I mean blog.

I am in the midst of finding myself, spirituality-wise. I have researched many world religions and spritual paths and so far I am leaning towards Pagan. I don't pretend to know everything about everything but to quote Robert DeNiro, "I know a thing or two about a thing or two."

I absolutely love the Earth and the stars/moon. Speaking of that - tonight is a full moon!! :) I would love to garden but unfortunately I can't find many things that I can get to grow in the Arizona weather, and my windowsills just aren't big enough to hold as many herbs/plants/flowers as I would like to grow. So I am holding off on that until I have some actual space to work with.

Basically, I am here to learn some things from some of you who have been alive much longer and have learned things that I have not stumbled upon as yet. Hope to hear from you all in the not-too-distant future.

Fun Fact - Did you know that the full moon tonight is known as the Seed Moon? This means that it's the most appropriate season for planting seeds that you wish will flourish in the coming months.