Lord, how are they increased that trouble me! many are they that rise up against me.
Many there be which say of my soul, There is no help for him in God. Selah.
But thou, O LORD, art a shield for me; my glory, and the lifter up of mine head.
I cried unto the LORD with my voice, and he heard me out of his holy hill. Selah.
Psalm 3:1-4
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Sunday, September 28, 2008
It's Staring Me In The Face, Again...
Court.
It's staring me in the face, again.
The day after tomorrow, I'll have another three hour trip to meet my husband before judges and attorneys.
There is a constant knot in my stomach and "butterflies" that will not leave me be. I feel sick most of the time, and am nervous and tense. I cannot sleep when bedtime hours hush the house, and when daylight filters through the slats of my bedroom blinds, I'm not rested enough to greet the new day.
I cannot stop wondering what my husband is brewing against me. What will he put me through this time? Who will be in court to testify for him? How will he attempt to paint me this time? Will they take the restraining order away from me? Will they change their decision regarding custody? Will everyone see my husband for who he is? Or will they fall for his song and dance?
He cries when he thinks it will benefit him.
He cries.
That's how he got me to take him back every time.
He fooled me, and he's always fooling others.
You think that he means to change, but change never happens.
His tears might convince the court.
In the meantime, money has weighed heavily on me. I must get a job. But the town is so small, there are no opportunities.
There was a "help wanted" sign up at a nearby family restaurant. But the man never called me back. Should I feel relief? Acceptance? -- Or fear? If even a waitress job can't be had by me, then what?!
I've gone back to sewing and listing on Ebay, this past week. I'm praying, praying, praying I can make enough to support us, even a little. Just for a time, at least.
I invested in some notions, a cheap sewing machine from Walmart, and some material. I got some poly bags for shipping to save money in the long term.
I sold well, before.
I must sell well, again.
The children need me. I'll keep you updated on court, this Tuesday the 30th...
Pray for us.
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Sunday, September 28, 2008 - Praying for you...
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I'm praying for you, Carrie. With the Lord on your side, no one can stand against you. That's the Lord's promise to you! He loves you and wants the best for you and your precious children. I pray your cause "shines like the noon-day sun". May you find peace throught this trumoil. God can do that for you. He has promised "peace the surpasses all understanding" to His children. I pray that for you.
God's blessings to you,
Jennifer (allbygrace)
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Sunday, September 28, 2008 - SO Sorry.....
Simplelife Said:
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Just last year I helped a friend through her divorce it was bad enough justbeing that close to it. I couldnt imagine being the one in it! I pray for strength and favor for you in court! Ask God for favor in court tomorrow and to have your husbands real self show through. Ask God for the judge to be Discerning enough to realize what he is like. He cares about what is happening....
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Sunday, September 28, 2008 - Untitled Comment
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I am praying for you too. I love you and your little family. I believe in prayer, just remember that all things work together for our good, all things give us experience. I just wish it all wasn't so hard. But the Savior will carry our burden and i know that your have great faith. Keep us posted.
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Sunday, September 28, 2008 - (((((((((Carrie))))))))))
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Carrie, don't worry. Trust in the Lord your God who has carried you this far. He will never leave you nor forsake you and He will not put his daughter to shame.
We are praying for you and believing for more miracles in your life, today, tomorrow and forever, because God is the same yesterday, today, tomorrow, and forever.
Casting all your cares upon Him, for He cares for you. 1 Peter 5:7
Let not your heart be troubled: you believe in God, believe also in Me. John 14:1
You will keep him in perfect peace, Whose mind is stayed on You, Because he trusts in You. Isaiah 26:3
I will both lie down in peace, and sleep: For you Alone, O Lord, Make me dwell in safety. Psalm 4:8
When you lie down, you will not be afraid: Yes, you will lie down and your sleep will be sweet. Proverbs 3:24
He who dwells in the secret plae of the Most High Shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty. I will say of the Lord, He is my refuge and my fortress: My God , in Him I will trust. Psalm 91:1,2
Peace I leave with you, My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid. John 14:27
Blessings in Jesus' Name!
Dee and family
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Sunday, September 28, 2008 - job
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Carrie,
You have got to start telling people that you "really need a job" because you are "going through a bad divorce" and "have all these kids."
Seek a job agressively.....it's what I've had to do in the past. We women are not taught to seek agressively, but it has to be learned and done.
Anonymous Working Mother
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Sunday, September 28, 2008 - Untitled Comment
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*Hugs* I am praying! I pray for you all every night! I love you all!
God bless you!
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Sunday, September 28, 2008 - Untitled Comment
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I am also praying for you dear Carrie. I am so glad you popped on to update us!!! God is with you Carrie!!! Do not fear, for He is with you!!!!
Please, when you have time, tell us how to find yoru ebay listings.
God's Blessings,
Amy Jo
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Sunday, September 28, 2008 - Be Brave, Carrie...
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Thanks for the update, Carrie. I think it is natural for you to feel as nervous as you're feeling. All the comforting Bible verses you're receiving are true, you know, so read them over and over and cling to them.
In addition, I think you should continue to be brave. Even if you don't feel so brave and calm inside, stand up straight andf calmly on the outside while you're in that courtroom. After all, you are telling the truth and your husband isn't. Bet the judge has dealt with people like him before. Your husband can't change the testimony of your children. Just pray and be brave.
As for finances, aren't you skilled in some particular kind of computer work? It seems like you mentioned it once.Is there a vocational school in your little town or nearby where you can take a Certified Nursing (I can't think of what the last word is, but you'd be officially qualified to work in nursing homes, private homes, etc. helping the sick.) or a course as a medical transcriptionist? They can work from home sometimes.
Does your school system have a federally funded Head Start program? You need an easily earned certification for that, but the hours would fit right in with school hours and the pay is good and so are the benefits. At least they used to be...
Keep sewing. What else do you need to enhance your ability in sewing? Threads, needles, scissors, patterns? A website to advertise your wares? Please let us know. Thanks and good luck.
Prayers to you and yours.
Cat
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Monday, September 29, 2008 - I am so sorry
Tabaitha Said:
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There would not be enough room for me to go into all the details , but I know what you are going through and I am so sorry.
I was also so sad to hear that you are not wearing your covering much anymore and to read the children went to public school,but I know you are in GOD's hands.I know GOD will take care of you and you are in his all loving hands, hiding you beneath his wings as a mother hen holds her chicks.
I pray that through the deliverance that GOD is giving you,that you do not turn more to the world,as the Hebrews did when GOD delivered them from the abusive and cruel egyptians.I pray that you can feel my hugs of comfort.Greater is He that is in you then He that is in the world.You have GOD on your side Sister,Hold on to Jesus.Love,Tabaitha
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Monday, September 29, 2008 - Untitled Comment
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Your title says it all....You'll have to "Trust Him" to get through these times. Go into that Court Room with your head held high...You have nothing to worry about as long as you don't have a bunch of divorce where you cried abuse. Then, things could be different as the court would see a "pattern". Continue to take care of your children, seek a job and know the truth will come out. Good Luck!
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Monday, September 29, 2008 - Untitled Comment
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Carrie,
I emailed you and gave you my new email address and updated you on me. I am so sorry you have go through this. I will be praying tomorrow. Also, read Isaiah 54. God has given me these promises and I believe it to be for you as well. Read the whole chapter. cling to verses 4-10. Take care of you and your kids. I love you dear sister!
Cheryl
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A Christian woman's chronicled experiences following the fleeing of her abusive husband.
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