Tuesday, December 27, 2005
Humble beginnings
Posted in Our life
Warning: Introspective post on why I am "here"  My dh and I have always lived on a good sized piece of property. We even tried gardening for a few years early on in our oldest son's life. The problem we always ran into was the amount of work required. Now, my dh does not have a problem with work. While he may joke about being lazy he's never been as far as I can see. I, on the other hand...  It is said that the name Sara means "princess" and let me tell you I am living proof of the name fitting. As my poor husband worked hard, I found something else to be doing. Even baking bread was prefered to breaking soil. But eventually even bread baking was too much with "all" the work I had to do raising kids.  Fast forward several years and children later to this past year when the Lord seemed to force me to come to terms with my laziness in every area of my life. I have posted about this on my h-sblogger blog earlier this month so suffice to say that life has been hard. But even in the midst of all this I have seen God working, especially on me. It's as if, to use the human terminology which probably doesn't do justice to God's personality, He finally had enough of me and told me it was time to put my money where my mouth was. It is one thing to WANT to be a certain way, it is another thing entirely to actually BE that way. It involves huge sacrifice and, well, I'm a wimp. But God seems to be saying, "Enough is enough." And I am finally listening. It hasn't been easy to face what I have allowed myself to become but I know that He will help me through even this. Now it is time to begin to live the way I am supposed to which means finally caring for those (people and things) God has given me to care for. For years we've wanted certain things in our home and family. These things are healthy for the mind and the body and it really isn't as difficult as I try to tell myself it is. (Where is an American Flag smily when I need one?) Of course, after today's bread baking, I might easily be able to convince myself that things were easier in the "good old days." 
And, of course, God has made it completely impossible for me to return
to those days so it's time to stop my whining and get busy.
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Friday, December 30, 2005 - Ditto!
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