• 2009-Jan-8 - Thursday....
Posted By glenda
You know I will never understand somethings.. I dont think we are really suposed to.. Maybe that is what the problem is I am trying to understand things i am not to... At least not here on this earth...
As I wrote about yesturday i got my finial divorce papers yesturday. It was not a surprise or even a shock to get them. I knew they were at the lawyors office and i knew things were final.. I knew it was just a matter of her getting them in the mail to me. Yet still when i got them it threw me.. Do i want the life we had back... The anger, the hitting, the screaming, name calling etc.. NO.... Do i want the coldness that was going on in my home for years.. NO... Yet when i got those papers all the emotions that i thought i had dealt with came out. All those feelings of failure. I am sure some of the emotions were due to being sick but still when you hold those divorce papers in your hand and everything is all so nicely wrote out in lawyors terms.. It is so cold... Divorce is NEVER easy... NEVER.... No matter how well you handle it, No matter how much you try to not be hurtful... It is still never easy...
I am still running low grade fevers.. They seem to come in the early morning and at night.... It is driving me crazy.. I still can not talk.. I am just so tired. I am going to call my doctor today.. Liz made a comment last night that my color is really off again.. I am sure my blood levels have dropped again... And well i need to get that checked before it gets to low... Plus if my body is fighting off a infection it will effect my blood levels... I can not afford for them to get to low again.. period... as it is they range between 8 to 10 at max.. Still real low on a normal range... So i will be calling my doctor today...
I ended up sleeping until 430 or so yesturday then took the children to church. I must have looked like a sight because everyone was looking at me and saying oh my you dont look good.. Just what a women wants to hear... They all ment well i know but lord i did not need to hear that.. ;-) After church I went back to bed again.. I have been up long enough this am to post here, take a shower and I am wiped out.. As soon as i finish this i am going to go and lay back down again.. Like i said i am just so tired....
I pray that each of you are haveing a blessed week.
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• Wednesday, January 7, 2009 - Hebrews 10:26...
In reading the Bible this morning, I read this verse, and now
have a question...to me this is saying that if we deliberately sin
after knowing Yahweh, that there is no more sacrifices to take away
our sin...does this mean that if we sin deliberately on something
after knowing Yahweh, that we will lose our redemption??
For example,
Susie is a Christian who kept Sunday as Sabbath, she learned that Sat
is the true Sabbath as spoken of in the Bible, but she continues to
look at Sabbath as Sunday because she doesn't want people to look at
her strange, or change her life or what have you...since she is
sinning because she knows that Saturday is the Sabbath spoken of in
the Bible, but she is refusing to keep it will she no longer have
redeption/eternal life because she essentially turned her back on the
last/only sacrifice necessary for eternal life?
That question was asked on a group I'm on. It's mainly regarding trying to understand Hebrews 10:26
For if we sin wilfully after that we have received the knowledge of the truth, there remaineth no more sacrifice for sins,
Here is Gill's Commentary --
Heb 10:26 For if we sin wilfully,.... Which is not to be understood of a single act of sin, but rather of a course of sinning; nor of sins of infirmity through temptation, or even of grosser acts of sin, but of voluntary ones; and not of all voluntary ones, or in which the will is engaged and concerned, but of such which are done on set purpose, resolutely and obstinately; and not of immoral practices, but of corrupt principles, and acting according to them; it intends a total apostasy from the truth, against light and evidence, joined with obstinacy.
After that we have received the knowledge of the truth; either of Jesus Christ, or of the Scriptures, or of the Gospel, or of some particular doctrine, especially the principal one, salvation by Christ; of which there may be a notional knowledge, when there is no experimental knowledge; and which is received not into the heart, but into the head: and whereas the apostle speaks in the first person plural, we, this is used not so much with regard to himself, but others; that so what he delivered might come with greater weight upon them, and be more readily received by them; when they observed he entertained no hard thoughts or jealousies of them, which would greatly distress the minds of those that were truly gracious. Moreover, the apostles use this way of speaking, when they do not design themselves at all, but others, under the same visible profession of religion, and who belonged to the same community of believers; see 1Pe_4:3 compared with Act_22:3. Besides, these words are only hypothetical, and do not prove that true believers could, or should, or do sin in this manner: to which may be added, that true believers are manifestly distinguished from these persons, Heb_10:38,
there remaineth no more sacrifice for sins; meaning, not typical sacrifice; for though the daily sacrifice ought to have ceased at the death of Christ, yet it did not in fact until the destruction of Jerusalem; but the sacrifice of Christ, which will never be repeated; Christ will die no more; his blood will not be shed again, nor his sacrifice reiterated; nor will any other sacrifice be offered; there will be no other Saviour; there is no salvation in any other, nor any other name whereby we must be saved. These words have been wrongly made use of to prove that persons sinning after baptism are not to be restored to communion again upon repentance; and being understood of immoral actions wilfully committed, have given great distress to consciences burdened with the guilt of sin, committed after a profession of religion; but the true sense of the whole is this, that after men have embraced and professed the truths of the Gospel, and particularly this great truth of it, that Jesus Christ is the only Saviour of men by his blood and sacrifice; and yet after this, against all evidence, all the light and convictions of their own consciences, they wilfully deny this truth, and obstinately persist in the denial of it; seeing there is no more, no other sacrifice for sin, no other Saviour, nor any salvation in any other way, the case of these men must be desperate; there is no help for them, nor hope of them; for by this their sin they shut up against themselves, in principle and practice, the way of salvation, as follows.
Thoughts?
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• Wednesday, January 7, 2009 - "Natural" GMO meds?
WASHINGTON – You've heard of making cheese from goats' milk, but prescription drugs? In what would be a scientific first, an anti-clotting drug made from the milk of genetically engineered goats moved closer to government approval Wednesday after experts at the Food and Drug Administration reported that the medication works and its safety is acceptable.
Called ATryn, the drug is intended to help people with a rare hereditary disorder that makes them vulnerable to life-threatening blood clots.
Its approval would be a major step toward new kinds of medications made not from chemicals, but from living organisms genetically manipulated by scientists. Similar drugs could be available in the next few years for a range of human ailments, including hemophilia.
Ok, I'm always on the rather outside of popular thought here I know, but am I seriously one of only a few who think this is just a bit beyond normal? I understand the medical ramifications here, and of course I'm not saying allow folks to suffer when a potential 'help' is out there. But this GMO craze the government is on is so obviously NWO.
I'm not even going to debate anything, I'm just making an observation.
We are being given Hell in a handbasket and accepting it with not only willing, but grabbing hands.
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• 2009-Jan-7 - Wiped OUT!!
Posted By glenda
I have to admit i have not been this wiped out in a long time. This cold has knocked me on my butt..... I went to bed yesturday afternoon around 1 and only got up enough to go to the bathroom and get a drink of water. I have done this all day yesturday, last night and today.. I am still wiped... I cant talk, my throat is hurting, my chest hurts, my head hurts.. YOu name it i just feel alround bad.... I know that it was a blessing that this showed it head before surgery.. I sure did not need this to happen after surgery or while i was in the hospital. i am sure that it would have only hurt my recovery time. So if i can say anything I can thank God that he allowed the cold to come out before i went to the hospital.
Today has been a day. You know what no matter how much you think you are ready for your divorce papers to come into the mail and no matter how much you know that what has taken place is the only thing that could have taken place.. Still when you get those papers you hold them in your hands and feel like a failure.... I mean there is no other words that can fill how i have felt today.... A failure.... I mean I knew the papers were in, I knew that i was divorced, I knew that the judge had signed them and to be honest i also know that me and the children are better off now.. But to hold that stack of papers that round out the last 20 years of your life in your hand and it is so cold and so uncaring... That stinks....
have a blessed day all
glenda |
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• Jan. 7, 2009 - Make your own butter
One day last week I remembered that I had bought some heavy cream over the holidays for Moma's Favorite Cookie, which I am GOING to post the recipe for! REALLY! :) Well, I thought with this much cream, it would be a good time to show the children how to make butter... well the easy way to make butter.
We pulled out the ole food processor.
 Poured in all that cream and turned it on...
 There were a few different stages that I told them we would see...
First of all we saw it just as a liquid, as it is as cream.
We would start seeing the cream slowly becoming thicker, until we had it at the whipped cream stage.
They all tried it at this point and sneered... sadly they thought it would taste like cool whip. Pitiful, huh? I told them at the enormous amounts of 'stuff' added to cool whip and this was so much better, and that we could add a little sweetner if we wanted whipped cream, but we want butter!
 Keep it moving, keep it moving...
FINALLY!
BUTTER! :) HURRAH!
 Please forgive the skunk stripes down my child's hair... our New Years Party got a bit crazy! :) haha
 Mmm... this butter is good, Mom!
We even took the buttermilk and put it in a jar to use later and washed the curds with ice water to help get all the milk off so the butter would last longer.
Now a solid. How crazy are we? Doing school when we are supposed to be on holiday? haha... so is the life of a homeschooler.
I hope you have a great day friends.
From My Homestead to Yours,
~Chas~
Chasity L. Burrell
Heritage Acres Farm
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• Wednesday, January 7, 2009 - Wednesday Doings
I have a large canner full of ground meat sitting on the stove, simmering away with some onions and a touch of beef base.
It's my 18 or 20 qt water bath canner..darn thing takes up a burner and part of another. I thought about taking it out to the front porch grill, but then I'd be battling cats and dogs all day. Didn't seem like a perfect plan.
So it sits on my stove.
There is just shy of 30# of ground meat in that beauty. Actually, ground meat covered with water looks rather ickish...but it sure beats trying to fry patties and keep them warm for canning. And they really look icky in the jars. I know -- who's gonna see my pantry, and even so, when (not if) push comes to shove and we are living out of what's in that pantry, who is gonna care what it looks like as long as it tastes good? It's just me. I would like the fruits, or in this case meats, of my labor to be asthetically pleasing lining those pantry shelves. Just call me vain. It's ok.
Next on the agenda today is some laundry -- finally a sunny yet cool day to get those clotheslines filled. We are still using the washing machine, such as it is. It barely spins out at this point, so we run things through another set of rinse cycles, spinning them by hand. Sort of jump starting the spin cycle. Dewey wants to get another machine. I'm still not inclined. Yes, it's a pain to stand over that machine and babysit it just to make it spin, but I choose to do it. It's not so bad really. Doesn't take any time extra anyway. I know it's taking some extra water and electricity, but until we start doing it by hand, I'll muddle along this way. Besides, I have some upwardly mobile friends who totally get irked when I press on to the frugal and backwoods lifestyle :o) I like to provide them plenty of cause for talk when I can (truth be told, I probably provide them far more talk than I actually know about...they think I'm just this side of insane most the time).
Bread baking today. I'm using the 20 qt mixer and we're doing up at least 1 6 loaf batch. It's been so rainy, the last attempt with bread baking went a bit wrong on us. It was edible, but oh goodness did it fall out terribly and barely rise. Made a decent toast, though. Even if we couldn't have eaten it, there are chickens out there still so it wouldn't have been a total waste at any rate.
That's about it. We are having Beef Nachos for dinner. Church tonight -- I'm teaching the teen class. Note the excitement in my tone there...not. There are only 7 teens -- 3 being my own, 2 sisters, 1 other girl and the boy we bring from down the road. No one has the slightest interest in doing anything besides toying with cell phones...one girl in particular. And that disrupts the entire group. I have a feeling it will be an issue to end once and for all tonight. Keep me in prayers. I'm sure most of you know by now that sometimes (ok pretty fairly often) I am a tad bit less than tactful. I'm going to try me best, but... |
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• 2009-Jan-6 - Surgery changed
Posted By glenda
Hello all I wanted to update you all and let you know that my surgery has been changed. I ended up coming down with what ever the children had. Cough, fever, etc and well with that they cannot oper. So now i have to wait until 1/28...
Please keep us in your prayers. I am on a very tight rope right now and well to be honest i am about to scream..
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• Jan. 6, 2009 - Wish Books...
Posted By HSB Front Porch
Oh, those tempting little darlings are arriving daily in the mail  ...yep, you know what I mean...SEED CATALOGS!
What lovely thoughts they do bring to mind, gorgeously blooming flowers, luscious fruits and bountiful vegetables all in a perfectly tended garden  .
Making a long list of new things to try and some old favorites to replant comes next.
Then reality sinks in when I actually add up the cost of my wish list ; and the paring down begins. I still usually end up with more seeds than garden space; but they make nice little gifts to tuck into a card or letter for a fellow gardener, and many can be saved for planting next season.
I've yet to sit down for my list making this year, and it is just about time to start some things indoors  ; but this afternoon looks to be cold and dreary outside- perfect weather for "seed shopping" in my book!
I will probably order from Bountiful Gardens and Seed Savers Exchange this year. I love The Cook's Garden catalog, too; though mine has not yet arrived. What are your favorite places to order seeds from?
Next week I'll try to post a few picks for 2009 from my wish list. Please share your own favorite seed catalogs, and any "must have" items from your own wish list this year!
With Wishes for a Bountiful New Gardening Year,
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• 2009-Jan-5 - Hello all...
Posted By glenda
Well we are getting ready for my hospital visit. I go tomorrow to the doctor and then to the hospital to get all the pre reg stuff done at the hospital. I am not looking forward to this not at all....
I will be there in the hospital for two days at least. I have to be at the hospital on Wednesday at 7am. The children will stay with friends from church. The girls will come home daily to take care of things here and keep the house all together.
I have to admit i have been over every emotion I think there is. I have been ok lets get this done, to oh god why me, to I still want more children God.. Now i am just at the point of I am tired of being cut on.. Like i said i am and have every emotion one can have.
It is raining here again. Oh boy I know that i should be thankful for the rain but dear God enough is enough. I am having enough problems with my emotions and then you add rain into the mix and Lord that is just to much.
The children are taking all of this better than me. Oh course they are teens and seem to take things better on the outside than us adults. Then again after the year we have had last year i am almost sure they are just used to it.. You would think i would be yet i am not.. Go figure....
I am planning on being out of the hospital by friday if everything works out ok.
I am now on a liquid diet. OH the joy.... Just what someone wants jello for a day....So much fun.. hee hee... Oh well could be worse I could have to eat brussle spouts all day long.. :-)
I will try to update you as i can.Or i should say i will have my oldest update you as she can.
have a blessed day all
glenda |
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• 2009-Jan-3 - Just a few thoughts
Posted By glenda
Well the days are now being counting down until i have my surgery... I have to say i am starting to feel a little antsy.... I mean I know that i know i have to have this done but... I WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO HAVE CHILDREN AGAIN.... I am sitting here and I have been crying on and off all night long.. Now my head understands that with all my other health issues i cant ever think of having another child.. I mean it could kill me.. Even if everything was perfect with my cancer issues.... Still i could not have anymore children.. But my heart breaks.. I always loved the feeling of carring that little ones.. To feel that little move, to hear there heart beat for the first time... I will never get to experience that again.. never... Medically i have to have this done.. There is NO choice... But my Heart .......................................
Please pray that God will give me peace in this..
glenda |
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