• Sunday, August 5, 2007 -

So as I stated in my first entry, I am quite the myspace addict. I have more of a social network on there of friends and other preggers. But Ive come to realize that although I can communicate with my friends, old and new, I cant quite get my feelings out. Then after my mom telling me about something she learned off one of the blogs, I remembered, "Oh yes, I have one of those too..." so here I am now. I am now 36 weeks pregnant! For those of you who don't know, I'm having a little girl. Or at least I hope so. I had my first U/S at 19 weeks and the tech said I was having a girl. My doctor does an U/S every visit and up until this last time, 'she' has had her legs crossed or been in the wrong position. Then last time he said he thought that she was a girl. Thought being the key word. UGH! Either way, I'm happy. When I first arrived here in Arkansas I was so frustrated with everything. My life, people, God. After countless hours of crying, a few of getting angry and some spent in self pity, I have finally gotten back to what I know as 'me'. I understand that although I don't have the ideal fairy tale, I am quite blessed with what I do have. I am so thankful to be here with my mom! She is the best friend I have. I thought that I was close with her before, but I think being pregnant has brought us a closer in a different way. I know she gets tired of the endless questions I have, but like she jokingly told us when we were kids. "Just wait till you have your own."  Well momma, guess what? Im prego! Payback has started. Although I have been pregnant forever it seems, I woke up the other day and realized, oh my goodness, I am pregnant. I am bringing a life into this world, and I am responsible to raise and teach someone else. That thought scares me so bad! As much as I want to hold my little one, I also dont want to raise them in the world today. I feel like that in my belly they are safe, and I can somewhat control what happens. But when she comes out, I dont have that control as much. Its so hard to explain. I just dont want her to grow up in this mess! It breaks my heart. Whew. Can ya'll tell the hormones are kicking in? :) I hope everyone is doing well and making it through this heat! I have a doctors appointment on Tuesday and I promise to stay in touch! Nicole and Emma! This is my belly at 35 weeks!

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• Wednesday, May 9, 2007 - Allergies, Allergies go away come again another day!

Good afternoon bloggers!  I have had a good few days. Which I am def. thankful for. So lets see, Monday my dad was home due to the weather so he and my mom built the rest of the goat fence. I slept in late (oops) then I got up, did some chores and made macoroni and cheese for lunch. From scratch, mind you. Then I also made some brownies. Our oven has been a bit off lately, so I had to bake them from an extra 10 minutes and probably could have gone longer. Then I did more chores and sat for a bit. My parents finished the fence. And I made dinner. I had planned on making twice baked potatoes, but it didnt happen that way. So we ened up with green beans, BBQ pork and some sliced bread my mom had made. Not the best meal but I was so hot and so frustrated after my potatoes didnt turn out! Yesterday I slept in, but I had taken two allergy pills so they knocked me out. When I got up I went to make myself breakfast and I kept hearing meowing, I first thought it was coming from the newly born kittens, but there was no way they could be that loud after a few days. So I told my mom we should go to the attic, and we got up there and found 2 kittens! We had thought our cat, Dirty Harry,had lost hers, but we found em! My mom had to crawl across the floorboards and pick them all up. It was def. a sight to see, because she was laughing the whole time.  Then as she was coming back I saw another little head pop up and there were two more kittens. We brought them outside to their mama. Now DJ, who just had babies, thought they were hers and layed down for them to feed on her. I have never seen a cat or any other animal do this. We also have a cat, BJ, whose kittens are about two weeks old, who has taken DJ's kittens as her own. Its very strange. And a bit confusing too, right? My mom took some pictures of me and my belly...here they are   This is me and my man Bob. :) Then mom and I ate dinner and watched our show Reba.  After it cooled off some we planted flowers. A task Im happy we finally got too. This morning I woke up(bright and early) and planted the rest. I hope everyone is having a good day!

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• Saturday, May 5, 2007 - Lazy Bones

Hello fellow bloggers. I hope this post find you all well. I dont have anything exciting to tell. I was supposed to go to Farmers Market today and learn how to make bread. But I didnt wake up on time. I even went to bed early. I slept about 12 hours. I could have slept longer too. I woke up and my mom had all the housework done, including the bread. I saw this and started crying...I just love the hormones! It didnt get that  hot today but I felt like I was melting. Now I am just watching a movie with my dad and trying not to fall asleep from the allergy medicine I took. Its quite lovely, let me tell you!

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• Friday, May 4, 2007 - To Blog or Not to Blog...

So I have been debating if I should signup for a blog account and today I finally caved. I am quite nervous about the addiction I might get from this. If any of you are familiar with Myspace then you know that its a similar website, and Im afraid I cant get enough. But anyhow, I am Nicole. I am 19. I just moved to Arkansas from Idaho, its been a big change but I like it. Im pregnant with a baby girl who is due in September. I am so excited! I've picked out the name Emma and Lynn as her middle name.  I have had a few struggles facing the upcoming role of a single mom. But I know everything is going to be just fine, I have my mom and dad to help me out which I couldnt be more thankful for! I live with my parents on a farm that is growing like crazy! But for the better of course. We have chickens, hogs, dogs, cats and one baby goat. My mom and I are starting to focus on goats, but we have found a new animal we want to get...its a called a Babydoll Southdown. They are sheep and super adorable! I eventually want to breed rabbits too. I dont know what else to put on here at the time but I know  there will be more to come.

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