Blessings From Home

I had a bad day....

I'm so upset. I had such a bad day. It started off with a woman from a message board I've been on for a long time telling me I was too overprotective and that I need to let my son do things on his own and I was holding him back and not letting him experience life. Then I took my son to the doctor this afternoon and left in tears. The doctor told me that his nausea could have something to do with too much acid, and the anxiety problem only makes it worse. I told her that my husband and I have decided to take him out of school and homeschool him. She said that it was an absolutely horrible idea and that if I did that I would only be hurting him and just making his anxiety worse because I wasn't forcing him to deal with the issues at hand. She gave me a prescription acid reducer and sent me on my way.

Then when I got home, my mom and dad were waiting at my house to be there in case I didn't make it home in time to meet my daughter's bus, and they asked what the doctor said, I told them what she said and how bad it confused and upset me, and next thing I hear is my mom bribing my son, telling him that for every day that he goes to school without crying this next week, she would buy him a prize.

Then after my husband got home and I told him all that happened to me today, he said that we would send him to school tomorrow and make him deal with it if that's what the dr says. I was heartbroken and so was my son. I feel so helpless, I just want to sit here and cry and cry. None of these people who are against me homeschooling will be here with me in the morning when I have to drag him to school.

All this, and my car died on me five times today, once in an intersection. I was paying a bill and had to pay a dollar fee to pay it at this certain place and all I had was small change, dimes, nickels, and pennys, and as I walked up in line to pay the bill, I dropped all the change and it went everywhere. And now I have a migraine brewing. I don't like to be so negative, it just drags me down further...so on a positive note, I had enough money to pay all my bills on time this week and get groceries. Something that doesn't always happen.

Thank you all for your prayers and sweet words of encouragement. You are all such a blessing to me. I'm just not sure what to do anymore. I'm so confused. I though I was being a better mom for wanting to protect my children and not wanting to put them through so much stress, but it turns out, I'm a horrible person.

Blessings,
Sara

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{ 05:24, Thursday, August 30, 2007 } { Posted by cindy }

Sara from one mother to another, go with your gut instint. I listened to others for years, forcing my baby girl into day cares, kindergarten in a public school all the while she was ripping at my clothes and screaming to please take her home, hold her, not let her go. I allowed those around me to forcfully take her from me and here I am 10 years later with a precious 16 year old daughter that is so full of fear she can't sleep alone. She doesn't like to be away from me, she fears the unknown. Don't do., hold that baby tight under your wing, right where God placed him and nurture him, teach him, and love on him every day.
I will be praying for you and your son. God will show just what He wants you to do. Be still and listen.

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{ 05:26, Thursday, August 30, 2007 } { Posted by CarolinaWren }

Oh honey, I don't know what to say except that my prayers are with you!!! You DID have an awful day. For what's it worth, you are NOT a bad mom in my book! Who says making kids "face their fears/problems" is always the best solution??! I certainly don't. I don't know what sort of things are going on with your son or how old he is (sorry if you've blogged about it before - I just read this most recent entry!) but kids of any age can be horrible to each other. How is it that a kid having stomach problems due to stress, to the extent of needing prescriptions, is going to be "better off" going right back into the fight ring??!! I just don't get it. I'm totally with you on the home schooling thing. My son is home schooling this year and I've seen SUCH a difference in him since he left the public school last June. Totally different kid- happy, content with who he is, not having to "prove" everything to everyone all the time. I hope your hubby will reconsider this decision with YOU; the doctor can make suggestions but should not be the final determining factor in something like this!!
I will keep you in my prayers.

Maria :)

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{ 06:08, Thursday, August 30, 2007 } { Posted by GrannyG }

Bless his little heart. He had a bad day too. Let me know if I can send him a package with lots of fun school worksheets. I clean at school and they discard so many nice worksheets. We tossed out lots of books and I send them to homeschooled children all over, so just PM me your address and I will be glad to send him a special package, just for him, and I know he will have fun. ((Hugs))

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{ 01:36, Friday, August 31, 2007 } { Posted by crewchief }

(((HUGS))) My oldest son was just exactly like this. Hysterical when it was time to drop him off at school. We went through the prescription acid reducers and even counseling. That was his last year in public school. I discovered later that he was actually being bullied, though he wouldn't say it at the time. I am so so glad we decided to homeschool. That was 5 years ago and now he is a perfectly wonderful and happy 12 year old. (no more acid meds, no more counseling)

I agree with the other commenters. Go with your gut insinct. (with your hubby's support, of course) I regret that we forced my son to finish out his horrible school year and wish we'd have pulled my crew out to homeschool when we were first led to do so. It would have saved us all a lot of heartache.

(((HUGS))) again. I'm praying for all of you.

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{ 08:02, Friday, August 31, 2007 } { Posted by mountainmama }

I feel as mothers it is our jobs to protect our children until they are emotionally mature enough to deal with things like this thereselves. I would pray that if this is the Lord's will that He will change your husbands mind. He did lay it on my husbands heart to homeschool after I prayed for a while. I will be praying.