Nothing in the world compares to that moment in ones life when they accept Christ as personal Savior. But, the contrast, is the feeling of being out of God's will for your life and knowing your spiralling out of control and not being able to admit it and save yourself from it. But, God being a forgiving God has had the grace to forgive me and send me to the tool shed and is now straightening me out once again, PRAISE THE LORD!!
After a few years of my life I would like to be able to erase from my memory the way God has, he's showing me how to correct my selfish heart and strive for treasures in heaven and not on this earth. I am learning to love my husband and children the way God intended us too, every day I open up my bible and find something that I can apply to my life, right then and there at that very moment. It's all about yielding to the holy spirit, it's amazing what God can do, if only we'd let him. After several weeks of indepth bible study and some very deep sermons at church that I am certain the Pastor wrote just for me (lol) I stopped fighting him, I prayed whole heartedly that God would show me HIS will for my life and I would follow him.
Not going into great detail of the mess my life was in before I did this, I will tell you, my DH and I were on the brink of divorce, something, I don't like to admit, as a Christian, I really don't believe in it. Though, allowing the world to steer our thoughts and such, made it look like the only option. With some really good councel and the grace of God, we saw the light, once again.
After a weekend of my DH staying the night at his mother's and telling me, it just wasn't going to work out. I spent the first night angry and praying very selfishly. Then a call came from a fellow believer that told me "I don't know what to say, but I love you and would like to pray with you." She prayed and I bawled. NEVER had anyone reached out to me like that. Then I sat thinking, that is the kind of person I want to be. My prayers that night changed drastically. I bawled again at the Savior's feet and asked him to teach me the way, to accept whatever came my way with my DH and that I knew God wanted our family together and only HE could keep it together, but that I needed to change things in my life and in my heart, with or without my DH. If I had to be the spiritual leader of my family, then so be it. I would raise my kids according to his word. I prayed that the Holy Spirit would work in DH's heart as well. That he would "Seek ye first the kingdom of God". Prayers were answered and it's been an amazing experience. God is definetly the best friend I have ever had and he has washed away tears 100x over.
Part of the change in my life is my daily devotions, I started with Psalms and Proverbs each morning, I know it sounds odd, but the one that still sticks in my mind is Psalms 1:1-2
"BLESSED is the man that walketh not in the counsel of the ungodly, nor standeth in the way of sinners, nor sitteth in the seat of the scornful. But his delight is in the law of the Lord; and in his law doth he meditate day and night."
It was the first I read, but yet, it's the one that sticks out most in my mind as I go through my days.
The future of my blogging, I plan to share my experiences as God bestows his blessings on our family, works on our hearts and as we strive for Christlikeness. I hope you continue to follow my blog and allow the Lord to give you a blessing from my blabbering posts! LOL
Blessings!
Lisa
Comments
2008-Aug-7 - Untitled Comment
Posted by Anonymous
I think we all ( if we are hones ) have times where we fall away and rebel against God wanting our own way. Ive been there myself. For me I think it was the curiosity. I was raised in church and felt I had always been a Christian. It just didnt mean the same anymore. For a year I was like this..... still going to church but not right with God. Nobody knew ..... secret sins. God allowed me to stray but then started tugging on my heart. You can only ignore God's tugging for so long. Now Im back in God's wonderful grace and honestly its given me a new perspective on what His grace and mercy really are.
I look forward to reading of your journey.
2008-Aug-8 - Untitled Comment
Posted by GypsyFarmGirl
I dont think its odd at all, the Lord gave you a specific scripture to rely on, just as he does for everyone else, its special to you and it helps you thats not odd its amazing, and a blessing. I can relate to this post too, and the gal that commented before me.
The Lord allows us to grow and when we reach the end of the mark He gets the Glory..
Jeannie
2008-Aug-8 - God is faithful!
Posted by blessedmomof10
Lisa,
I was blessed to read your post today! Thank you for sharing with us! We serve a great God and yes conforming to the image of Jesus Christ is no easy thing.....it can be down right painful at times..... but oh so good for our souls! I am glad to hear God saved your marriage and continues to work in your life!
He is able!
Blessings,
gloria